REAL TALK (PART II) - YOU'RE NOT ALONE!!
(I READ EVERY RESPONSE THAT I GET ON THIS BLOG SITE. TODAY I AM RESPONDING TO WHAT SOMEONE TYPED IN RESPONSE TO "BETTER DAYS ARE AHEAD' ON 6-27-05 [MY WORDS ARE IN CAPS] PLEASE READ)
Who knows if you even read these responses but I guess I will just put it out there. This particular one caught me right at a time when it appears that we were having some of the same questions - yet it has become impossible for me to sugar-coat myself with the same old answers - what about when you do feel that God has forsaken you and that He doesn't have anything to say to you, THAT’S A GOOD QUESTION, I FEEL LIKE THIS QUITE OFTEN. BUT THE SERIOUS QUESTION THAT I HAVE TO ASK MYSELF WHEN I AM FEELING LIKE THIS, IS, WHAT ROLE DID I PLAY, IF ANY, IN GETTING BACK TO THIS FEELING? YOU SEE THERE ARE MANY THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT CAUSE ME TO FEEL LIKE I’M FORSAKEN. CAN’T PAY BILLS, FEELING ALONE, FEELING WORTHLESS – LOW SELF-ESTEEM, ETC. I COULD GO ON AND ON…BUT I’VE HAD TO GO DEEPER DURING THESE SEASONS AND POINTS IN MY LIFE TO GET TO THE CRUX. I CAN’T WORK ON THE SHALLOW END ANYLONGER. WHY? THANKS FOR ASKING…CUZ I’M SICK OF BUSINESS AS USUAL. I’M TIRED OF THE NORMAL IN LIFE…I’M NOT ONE FOR TRADITION, ALTHOUGH I UNDERSTAND THAT IT HAS ITS PLACE IN MY LIFE AS WELL AS THE LIVES OF MANY OTHERS…BUT I WON’T LET TRADITION KILL ME. WHEN I’M FEELING FORSAKEN, INSTEAD OF BEING DEPRESSED (AND I USED TO BE LIKE THAT ALL THE TIME, AT A MOMENTS NOTICE) I TRY TO GO BACK TO THE POINT WHEN THE FEELING FIRST STARTED. NOT DURING THE DAY, I’M TALKING BOUT’ AS FAR BACK AS I CAN REMEMBER…NOW, THIS MAY JUST BE ME, AND IF IT IS, THEN IT IS…BUT IF NOT, IF YOU CAN FEEL ME, THEN APPLY THIS TO YOUR LIFE AS WELL ANONYMOUS. EVERYTIME I GET TO THE CRUX OF THE PROBLEM…MY DESPARITY, MY LONELINESS, MY FEELINGS OF INEPTNESS, MY FEELINGS OF WORTHLESS, MY LACK OF IDENTITY…I COULD GO ON AND ON AND ON…AT THE END OF THE DAY, IT ALL CENTERS AROUND MY CROWD. I WAS WITH THE WRONG GROUP OF PEOPLE AND IT NEVER CEASES TO AMAZE ME, EVERYTIME I DETOUR AND GO BACK TO THE OLD CROWD, SOMETHING ALWAYS MESSES UP AND THEN I GO INTO DEPRESSION MODE. WHY? BECAUSE I WANT TO BE ACCEPTED BY THE OLD CROWD THAT GOD HAS BLOCKED ME FROM GOING BACK TOO…AND THEN I GET TO A POINT THAT I BEGIN TO WRESTLE SPIRITUALLY WITH GOD, TO NO AVAIL (CAN’T FIGHT HIM, HE’LL WIN EVERYTIME, AND THEN HE’LL LEAVE YOU SCARRED or WALKING WITH A LIMP-ASK JACOB IN THE BIBLE)
What about when you see the world going on around you but you cannot figure where you fit or if you do at all? IT’S A PERCEPTION THING THAT STEMS INDIRECTLY FROM A DISAPPOINTMENT OF SORTS…LIKE I TYPED IN THE FIRST PARAGRAPH. What about when time after time, day after day you try to tell yourself that you matter but there is no physical evidence of that because you get no further than half step you have taken time and time again. THIS IS DUE TO THE FACT THAT WE ARE AN IMPATIENT PEOPLE. WE WANT EVERYTHING NOW. WE WANT EVERYTHING THE WAY WE WANT IT, HOW WE WANT IT AND IF IT ISN’T, WE’RE QUICK TO POUT! NOT SAYING THAT’S YOU, I’M SPEAKING IN GENERAL, BUT I’M ANSWERING FROM MY PERSPECTIVE, BECAUSE I’VE BEEN RIGHT HERE BEFORE…AS A MATTER OF FACT, I USED TO PARK MY CAR HERE ALL THE TIME, BUT I HAD TO WAKE UP AND UNDERSTAND WHO I AM. What is it when you find yourself so deep in depression time and time again (some times are just easier to cover than others) but there is no one to take you seriously in the church, and to seek counseling in the world makes you feel so guilty about NOT TRUSTING GOD? THIS IS SOMETHING I’VE DEALT WITH MYSELF, PERSONALLY, BACK WHEN I WAS DEALING WITH A LOT OF ME ISSUES. CHURCH PEOPLE DIDN’T TAKE ME SERIOUS, THEY DIDN’T I KNEW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT, AND I DID GO TO A PROFESSIONAL, BUT I DIDN’T FEEL GUILTY AT ALL. A PROFESSIONAL IS JUST WHAT IT IS, THEY’RE A PROFESSIONAL AND THEY SHOWED ME SOME ISSUES THAT I WAS STRUGGLING WITH AND THEY WERE ABLE TO HELP ME GET BACK IN PROPER ALIGNMENT. NOTHING AGAINST THE CHURCH, BUT BACK THEN, CHURCH TO ME WAS VERY DIFFERENT. TOO SPIRITUAL, SO HEAVENLY BOUND THAT THEY WERE NO EARTHLY GOOD...TO BE CONTINUED
(I WILL CONTINUE RESPONDING MONDAY TO ANONYMOUS FROM THE 6-27-05 RESPONSE-CHECK OUT THE ENTIRE QUERY)
Who knows if you even read these responses but I guess I will just put it out there. This particular one caught me right at a time when it appears that we were having some of the same questions - yet it has become impossible for me to sugar-coat myself with the same old answers - what about when you do feel that God has forsaken you and that He doesn't have anything to say to you, THAT’S A GOOD QUESTION, I FEEL LIKE THIS QUITE OFTEN. BUT THE SERIOUS QUESTION THAT I HAVE TO ASK MYSELF WHEN I AM FEELING LIKE THIS, IS, WHAT ROLE DID I PLAY, IF ANY, IN GETTING BACK TO THIS FEELING? YOU SEE THERE ARE MANY THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT CAUSE ME TO FEEL LIKE I’M FORSAKEN. CAN’T PAY BILLS, FEELING ALONE, FEELING WORTHLESS – LOW SELF-ESTEEM, ETC. I COULD GO ON AND ON…BUT I’VE HAD TO GO DEEPER DURING THESE SEASONS AND POINTS IN MY LIFE TO GET TO THE CRUX. I CAN’T WORK ON THE SHALLOW END ANYLONGER. WHY? THANKS FOR ASKING…CUZ I’M SICK OF BUSINESS AS USUAL. I’M TIRED OF THE NORMAL IN LIFE…I’M NOT ONE FOR TRADITION, ALTHOUGH I UNDERSTAND THAT IT HAS ITS PLACE IN MY LIFE AS WELL AS THE LIVES OF MANY OTHERS…BUT I WON’T LET TRADITION KILL ME. WHEN I’M FEELING FORSAKEN, INSTEAD OF BEING DEPRESSED (AND I USED TO BE LIKE THAT ALL THE TIME, AT A MOMENTS NOTICE) I TRY TO GO BACK TO THE POINT WHEN THE FEELING FIRST STARTED. NOT DURING THE DAY, I’M TALKING BOUT’ AS FAR BACK AS I CAN REMEMBER…NOW, THIS MAY JUST BE ME, AND IF IT IS, THEN IT IS…BUT IF NOT, IF YOU CAN FEEL ME, THEN APPLY THIS TO YOUR LIFE AS WELL ANONYMOUS. EVERYTIME I GET TO THE CRUX OF THE PROBLEM…MY DESPARITY, MY LONELINESS, MY FEELINGS OF INEPTNESS, MY FEELINGS OF WORTHLESS, MY LACK OF IDENTITY…I COULD GO ON AND ON AND ON…AT THE END OF THE DAY, IT ALL CENTERS AROUND MY CROWD. I WAS WITH THE WRONG GROUP OF PEOPLE AND IT NEVER CEASES TO AMAZE ME, EVERYTIME I DETOUR AND GO BACK TO THE OLD CROWD, SOMETHING ALWAYS MESSES UP AND THEN I GO INTO DEPRESSION MODE. WHY? BECAUSE I WANT TO BE ACCEPTED BY THE OLD CROWD THAT GOD HAS BLOCKED ME FROM GOING BACK TOO…AND THEN I GET TO A POINT THAT I BEGIN TO WRESTLE SPIRITUALLY WITH GOD, TO NO AVAIL (CAN’T FIGHT HIM, HE’LL WIN EVERYTIME, AND THEN HE’LL LEAVE YOU SCARRED or WALKING WITH A LIMP-ASK JACOB IN THE BIBLE)
What about when you see the world going on around you but you cannot figure where you fit or if you do at all? IT’S A PERCEPTION THING THAT STEMS INDIRECTLY FROM A DISAPPOINTMENT OF SORTS…LIKE I TYPED IN THE FIRST PARAGRAPH. What about when time after time, day after day you try to tell yourself that you matter but there is no physical evidence of that because you get no further than half step you have taken time and time again. THIS IS DUE TO THE FACT THAT WE ARE AN IMPATIENT PEOPLE. WE WANT EVERYTHING NOW. WE WANT EVERYTHING THE WAY WE WANT IT, HOW WE WANT IT AND IF IT ISN’T, WE’RE QUICK TO POUT! NOT SAYING THAT’S YOU, I’M SPEAKING IN GENERAL, BUT I’M ANSWERING FROM MY PERSPECTIVE, BECAUSE I’VE BEEN RIGHT HERE BEFORE…AS A MATTER OF FACT, I USED TO PARK MY CAR HERE ALL THE TIME, BUT I HAD TO WAKE UP AND UNDERSTAND WHO I AM. What is it when you find yourself so deep in depression time and time again (some times are just easier to cover than others) but there is no one to take you seriously in the church, and to seek counseling in the world makes you feel so guilty about NOT TRUSTING GOD? THIS IS SOMETHING I’VE DEALT WITH MYSELF, PERSONALLY, BACK WHEN I WAS DEALING WITH A LOT OF ME ISSUES. CHURCH PEOPLE DIDN’T TAKE ME SERIOUS, THEY DIDN’T I KNEW WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT, AND I DID GO TO A PROFESSIONAL, BUT I DIDN’T FEEL GUILTY AT ALL. A PROFESSIONAL IS JUST WHAT IT IS, THEY’RE A PROFESSIONAL AND THEY SHOWED ME SOME ISSUES THAT I WAS STRUGGLING WITH AND THEY WERE ABLE TO HELP ME GET BACK IN PROPER ALIGNMENT. NOTHING AGAINST THE CHURCH, BUT BACK THEN, CHURCH TO ME WAS VERY DIFFERENT. TOO SPIRITUAL, SO HEAVENLY BOUND THAT THEY WERE NO EARTHLY GOOD...TO BE CONTINUED
(I WILL CONTINUE RESPONDING MONDAY TO ANONYMOUS FROM THE 6-27-05 RESPONSE-CHECK OUT THE ENTIRE QUERY)
posted by Pastor Rich at 3:45 PM
0 Comments:
Post a Comment
<< Home